Think, Christy! Think!

I left them in the dust and did not have the heart to keep them alive. In my eyes, they were dead either ways. Their stems are soft. Water retention swelled up in its middle, as the ends start to dry and wit like dead wood. I can no longer feel the thin coat of fibres all across the slender stick, they have matted themselves into pricks. What was once crisp fresh leaves are now rubbers in green. You killed them. Its breathtaking yellow petals curled into one another. They are all preparing on what's to come. Pure death. The faith you designed for them. Your existence is now toxic to me. You have turned everything that I ever loved before you into hatred. I will never see my once favourite flower with joy. All I will see is you. The one I despise. You gave me yellow sunflowers, I acknowledged them but repelled their presence; You gave me loyalty, I swept their ashes into a flower pot. I only sympathise for the blossom, crumbling as it is wedged between us. It meta

Good evening from a warm and sticky climate place on Earth! And- Happy (Belated. Haha.) Chinese New Year! Hope that this year will be a prosperous year, and all the cliché Chinese New Year wishes. Most importantly, be healthy and safe. Over the weekends, I got a brand new phone. That's right. It's brand new. I had never owned a phone that isn't second handed. A new phone feels so fragile, with no scratches and screen protector, it's like holding a newborn baby. I feel terribly bad for not posting in a while, therefore I feel like this platform deserves to know more about the depths of my mind. Just a few minutes ago, I went through my photo gallery and found some pictures that I thought I had deleted. The pictures, they bring back memories that I don't want to retain, but as I looked closely, that moment when the picture was taken, it was such a sweet and comfortable phase in my time. I never thought I'd be one to share about a breakup publicly. It isn'

When I think about it, my insecurities were, and still are rooted by the trends. Just like the most of you, my life is practically evolved around social media, and the Internet in general. Everything that I do, even the littlest one, are all influenced by this integrated platform. We are bound to scroll pass any article related to fitness and body, inevitably. Body trends have existed since Ancient Greece. Idealizing a certain type of body isn't something that we humans are unfamiliar of. That trending body type represents our wealth and social status. It shapes our perspective of a 'healthy body' and the way we perceive attractiveness. At 2014, the thigh gap was all the hype. It was just when my hormones were raging, my body was going through changes. Every PE textbook told me the physical signs of puberty, but no one has ever taught how to deal with it emotionally. I went through a traumatic experience to adjust to my new (slightly more curvy) body. I remember think